These days, I feel a lot like a grumpy old woman. I am homesick. Yeah, I still have this homesick feeling though I have stayed at hostel for freaking 5 years. Hmm, things are just okay but my responses and reactions towards them are not that okay I think. I complain much. Everything seems to be flawed. And, yeah, what's worse, I am getting lazier. I don't know how true is this, coz I do keep myself on track and I do get my work done on time, but I don't know, I just feel that I am getting lazier, and it's not right. The final examination is just around the corner, and I know that I haven't really started putting my best efforts to revise, study and cover all the chapters. This is worrying me. It's hard to admit this, but like seriously, right now, I feel so powerless. Not to others, of course. But to my own self.
I just finished preparing for tomorrow's presentation for Computer Literacy. And when I was busy digesting all the words, I kinda drifted away and thought for a little while, of why I am like this.
Then, I was certain that I got the answer already, without realization, I am sure I am starting to be further apart from Allah s.w.t.